A Deeper Surrender

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Do you hear the music ?

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Your Beloved calls you here today
to ask you for this dance; what will you say?
Are you going to throw the chance away?
And do you hear the music?

I know you've got a lot of things to do,
but I think the world could turn a time or two
without all your precious plans
and you could stop to hear the music
in your heart, in your heart

Maybe you should give your mind a rest
and put its main assumption to the test;
just let go and see who leads the best,
surrender to the music

Maybe you don't need to understand
Maybe these are steps that can't be planned
Funny how your feet know where to land
when you listen to the music
in your heart, in your heart

Your Beloved calls you here today
to ask you for this dance; what will you say?
Are you going to throw the chance away? --
or listen to the music, listen to the music
in your heart....

Always here ?

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Is it in the sunlit meadow?
Is it in the rocks and trees?
Is it in the blue and yellow?
Is it in the one who sees? --

This radiance I recognize,
even when I close my eyes

Is it in the words you've spoken,
as trackless in their flight as birds...?
Is it in the silence broken?
Is it in between the words? --

This living truth you make so clear
The speaking stops, but still I hear

And I cannot see how I missed this before
Who I am is always here; of this I'm sure

Is it in the circumstances?
Is it in a quiet mind?
Does it only come in glimpses?
Is an event in time --

This peace, this peace that permeates
my mind, my moods, these changing states

Is it in your form that I hold so dear,
or older than your ocean eyes?
When you walk away, does it disappear?
Could it be so localized? --

This love, this love which no one claims
You come, you go, but it remains

And I cannot see how I missed this before
The love we are is always here; of this I'm sure

Is it in the sunlit meadow?
Is it in the rocks and trees?
Is it in the blue and yellow?
Is it in the one who sees?

Meet me

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Meet me, where the river meets the sea,
naked now, innocent and free
Beloved, I have been waiting throughout time
to welcome you into these arms of mine

Come without a thought
about what's been or what's in store
Leave the world of mind behind you
like sandals by the shore

And trust me; trust the beingness you are
I breathed you here; I've carried you this far
And open to whatever is and see,
whatever is, is always only me

Not in imagined futures,
or in remembered pasts,
but only here and only now
will you find a peace that lasts

So meet me, where the river meets the sea,
naked now, innocent and free

Pulling in the oars

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I'm pulling in the oars of this tiny boat,
growing weary of the rowing
and all the effort to reach some shore,
when it's not shore where I'm going

Rising with the tide, breaking with the wave,
I surrender every notion
that there is someone here to save --
as if I'm separate from the ocean!

And I surrender to the mystery
In the lap of God I rest my case
The force that bore this world can carry me
Who am I to question grace?

Who dreamed me into form?
Whose will sustains me?
Who brings what comes my way?
And when I die, who claims me?

Looking back, sometimes I have to laugh
What a lot of work it's been,
clinging to a sinking raft,
just to keep from falling in

So drown me in your darkest pain,
your softest kiss, your sweet despair
I've seen your face now and I know your name
And I can find you anywhere

I surrender to the mystery
and to the love that rises up to sing
Come what may, I vow to wait and see
I really don't know anything

I surrender to the mystery
and to the love that rises up to sing
The force that bore this world can carry me
I really don't know anything
I really don't know anything
I really don't know anything

All in free

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I feel your tease when the softest breeze
touches my face,
when you shake the trees,
when you sing the birds
So tenderly you speak to me
through the wounds in my heart,
or the look of a lover,
or a stranger's word

Who are you,
peeking through these faces and forms --
always new, always the same...?
Although you've tried hard to hide,
you can't fool me,
not any longer -- I'm going to call this game

All-ee all-ee in free, all-ee all-ee in free
Come out, come out, come out wherever you are
All-ee all-ee in free, all in free
Come out, come out, come out

You appear in the heart of fear
and each drop of pain
like a gem buried in the ground
Who would think of looking here
for signs of your grace...?
Ah, but there is no place
where you cannot be found

And every time I fall in love
I'm falling for you,
though the names have changed,
and the disguise
Dare I ask that you drop the mask?
Who do I love?
All-ee all-ee in free; don't you want to claim your prize?

All-ee all-ee in free, all-ee all-ee in free
Come out, come out, come out wherever you are
All-ee all-ee in free, all in free
Come out, come out, come out

Open secret

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When you asked me if I'd like to dance,
I could barely stand,
but I found no walls that I could lean against,
so I took your hand

I didn't know where you would dance me to
I only knew I didn't care
I was so happy just to be with you;
it didn't matter where

You danced me to an endless ocean view
from a high mountain plain
Then you danced me through a dark abyss
over cliffs and into flame

And for awhile you seemed to disappear
My head could find no place to rest
But when the ashes and the smoke had cleared,
you were beating in my chest

What a song, what a song,
what a secret, open song we are dancing to
In the cave of the heart it's been playing all along
but until you came, I never knew

Some people ask me what it is I've gained
and if there's a teaching to impart,
but I have no answers and no state to claim,
just an arrow through my heart

And some songs that try to name this luck,
but it's my destiny to fail,
for all expressions and experience
next to this love, pale

I still don't know where we are dancing to,
but I would be a fool to care
I am so happy just to be with you;
it doesn't matter where

What a song, what a song,
what a secret, open song we are dancing to
In the cave of the heart it's been playing all along,
but until you came, I never knew.

Rest in the Self

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When you rest in the Self
phenomena come and go,
but you are untouched
Are you willing to be still and not know? --

Not know where life is leading you,
not fight against what's greeting you
or bite the hand that's feeding you
Mmh mmh.....

Can you find where you're not?
Can you separate your self from the sum?
When you are what you seek,
there is nothing left to get or become

What if your restless search were through
for undeniably you knew
that everything is only you...?
Mmh mmh.....

Can you walk the razor's edge
without following a thought;
do you dare
to remain here and now,
not abiding in the mind anywhere...?

Are you willing just to be
witness to this mystery
in love and reverie...?
Mmh mmh....

Are you willing just to be
witness to this mystery
in love and reveverie...?
Mmh mmh....

The Satguru Song

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My beloved's love,
although it's tender, is so vast and true
that since you've asked her to,
she's not afraid to use a knife --
if that will cut you free
What a gift this ruthless love can be
It makes you want to sing
It ruins everything
you used to call your life

But you can't say she didn't warn you
She warned you from the start
that this Tiger is not tame
and this is not a game
for the weak at heart

My beloved's love
is worth it all, but there's a price to pay
Most people turn away
She leaves it up to you
She's so demanding;
let it be said she'll ask for everything
And that little bit that's left
to which you cling --
she's gonna want that to

In fact there's nothing to be gained here
And you stand to lose your mind
But I say, just pay the fees
and get down on your knees
for a love like that is hard to find

My beloved's love
is like an ocean that will draw you in
You can sink or swim --
but I suggest you drown
And come without your clothes
She always knows when you've got clothes or fins
And if you come up for air,
she's sure to spot you there
and pull you down

And she will crush your sand-like castles,
then find you where you hid
and offer you her hand
like nothing ever happened
And nothing ever did

My beloved's glance is enigmatic;
when it falls on you,
it could mean 'yes' or 'no',
it could mean just hello --
it's a kind of koan
So listen deeply
Don't stir up questions; she won't answer them
She'll make you dance with them
until the cows come home

And forget all your projections;
she will not play the part
And she won't do walks
or quiet little talks,
but she'll camp out in your heart

She's my beloved friend
God knows I love her, but our words are few
I think she loves me to
I have a question though...
What do you give someone
who's taken all you thought were away,
who gives you cause to sing,
who taught you everything that you don't know

Well I'm not sure how to thank her,
but for now it's awfully sweet
to pick up my guitar
and try to sing this love
'cause it's the only way I know to kiss her feet

Parrish light

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I watch the orange light
wash the meadows and the trees
I feel my heart ignite,
so I get on my knees
to hear the cricket song,
to feel the earth
and know that I belong
in this Maxfield Parrish light,
destined to perish with the night

And I am in this painting,
a liquid brushstroke through the sky
Yet I am witnessing
my form take birth and die
I change the landscape
and the landscape changes me
Somehow I'm a part
of the Artist and the art
of all I see

One light, hiding yet abiding
from dawn, through night, to dawn
One life, dividing and uniting
I go on and on...

Bathed by this peaceful light
I feel my sense of Self expand
I lose the need for flight
like a sparrow in God's hand
I lose the question
and I become the why and how
in the evanescent,
ever-present here and now

I watch the orange light
wash the meadow and the trees
I feel my heart ignite,
so I get on my knees

Only This Love

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I’m counting my blessings
as I lie here in bed
recalling your face
and the words that you said,
the look in your eyes
when I saw you last week,
that long ago touch
of your hand on my cheek.
I’m being consumed
by a love I can’t speak.

But if I could,
I would try to explain
how it’s worth it to suffer
immeasurable pain
and be born into form
on this physical plane
again and again and again and again
for the chance to be near you,
just once,
and proclaim this love –
only this love, only this love…

For this is the nectar
my living is worth.
This is my purpose,
my reason for birth;
it was not for some future
my mind could conceive
and not for the deeds
my will could achieve.
It was only for love,
only this love.

And just like these song notes
that rise and decay,
everyone here will soon pass away –
even this room
and this planet someday.
We can only assume
that God planned it that way
so we wouldn’t get lost;
but the price we must pay
for playing this game,
is that nothing remains –
only this love, only this love.

I have no idea
what the future will bring
or how many songs
I have in me to sing,
how many chances
I’ll have to express
the depth of this love
and the ways I’ve been blessed,
or how many times
I’ll be put to the test
for love, this love.

But despite all my faults,
I hope you can see
past the tales told by others
and the ones told by me
to the heart of my heart
where a river runs free
untouched by the mind’s sense
of how things should be.

And you can know me,
as I can know you
and trust in this love
we know to be true
and only this love,
only this love,
only this love, only this love.